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it's funny how when you're young and just born, your parents put so much faith in you. they encourage you and tell you that you are the best thing that has ever happened to them. when you fall, they help you back up. when you make a mistake, they understand you. they buy you ice cream and take you out for the night. it's different when you're older. if you fail, they throw up words that can cut glass, right through your heart. they tell you that there are people better than you and that your friend who sits next to you in math class is just as good as you are. they don't treat you like their trophy anymore. you have to start proving your worth. i don't want to stay young because i want to live life to the fullest. i don't want to stay young just so that i can be irresponsible and carefree. not because i want to go out and party all night long knowing that someone's still paying for rent, gas, and electricity. being young means that someone will always be there caring for you. whether it be your parents, friends, etc. when you're young, you're worth something and you don't even have to prove it. as you get older, people tear you apart. your parents, friends, family, school, church, etc. they tear everything down and leave nothing left. i can't say that i'm afraid to grow older but at the same time, i can't say that i'm looking forward to it. i wish someone still had faith in me.