tcnj = rejection
montclair = rejection
rutgers =
pace =
rowan =
penn state =
northeastern =
wheaton (IL) =
wheaton (MA) =
emerson =

the funny thing is i am okay. i'm okay with being unwanted. i was always good at being okay with it. one door closes. more open. optimism was never my thing. i am not optimistic. i am careless. i just don't care. i guess it's not a positive attitude, but it is definitely not negative either. careless. reckless. i have always been how i am. i think i'm going to be all right, but then again, i am always feeding myself with lies. i shit them out and i run on an empty stomach. i wish things could work out for me as easily as they do for others.