i am due for a miracle.

if i ever were to go back in time, i wouldn't change anything. from time to time, i contemplate these regrets and i swallow them. i swallow them and they sit in my stomach until i throw them back up. is it cliche to say that just maybe these were all bits and pieces of the almighty plan that the Son has paved for me? that just maybe the stars are aligned the way they are for a reason? it's all so surreal to me. how the sun keeps its promise to never burn out. how the rainbow comes and follows the footsteps of every raindrop. how easy it is for my faith to waver and fall of that narrow path. it's only a matter of time when i run back home, where my Father sits and waits for me. i don't think i'll ever be able to comprehend the amount of love that was bestowed upon me that day. sometimes, i get frustrated with myself and i let my tears soak the mask i wear every day. i succeed at fooling everyone, but i can never deceive Him. He knows everything about me. He knows the exact location of every freckle, hair, and blemish on my body. i can't escape this love and i don't think i'll ever be able to understand the work of His grace. there is no need to regret anything if this is His plan. i exist for one reason: Him.